It has been really long since I last updated the blog. Just feel like maybe I should really write down my feelings instead of keeping it to myself.
Firstly, studies. I have finished my A Levels in Sunway University College, time for me to move on. However I had really really really huge dilemma in choosing the path that I wanna pursue in future. Australia- chemical engineering or pharmacy? UK- medicine or microbiology? Local- medicine? Should I even consider business? I have not make up my mind. Previously talking to lecturers, friends many people, but they could not help me. Actually nobody can help me because at the end of the day I'm the one that have to make the decision. I just do not wanna face it. Aaron made me really sit down and think about my future. What I get back is not answers but headache. A severe one til I have to swallow 3 panadols to make it go away. Could not sleep, could not even stand up to find panadols that night. Life's really not that easy. I do not know why I hang on to chemical engineering for 5 years. Is it really because I like physics and the course, or it is just because I know that I would earn decent living to support my siblings in future? I have huge responsibilities and sometimes I just could not take it. Aunts concerned looks and family's advice, everybody is watching me making my decision. I do not know what to do and I do not want to disappoint them. Being in the centre of attention for this kinda thing is not what I need. I'm just a normal kid. I need time to think or please somebody decide it for me. I'm scared that one fine day in future, I'll look back and regret, scolding myself for making this kinda decision.
Secondly, Sunway. A place full of bittersweet memories. Freaking tempted to just accept Monash offer, study medicine and stay there longer. Too many possible reasons for me to stay there. But I know, staying in a place full of memories, yet cannot even make things happen, I would go crazy in no time. For the past 2 weeks I have been experiencing enough. The feelings of being so useless and cannot do anything to change any freaking thing, its so damn hurt. Well, I could not blame anyone or anything for what that have happened. Someone used to say, everything happens for a freaking reason and I damn hope the reason is reasonable. I'll dedicate the bittersweet memories there in another post.
Thirdly, time flies. I have an awesome and most probably the best bday I've ever had in these years. All my friends they remembered my bday and celebrated with me. Firstly, my beloved housemates! Lavinia Kong texted me on 27/11 saying that we are celebrating Yan Ying's bday and asked me to go back hostel. I went back and she was out. Other housemates gave me presents they bought for me in Langkawi. Suddenly, Lavinia entered the unit with a bday cake with the guys behind her singing Happy Bday song. Thank you buddies! I miss you guys damn much. Ky, Twinkle, Lavi, Shi ying, Yan ying, Daphne, yi han, kee, jeihin, jonathan, man hong etc. They were there for me and Im seriously touched! Awesome friends! Thank you you all for the presents, for the memories and for being there <3 p="">
Thank you Ruby for spending a day with me in IOI Boulevard. Had a wonderful lunch with you at Sukishi eating buffet. Hey girl, seriously, you should eat more! too skinny d! We went and find empty boxes for me to move out from SMR too. Sis! Thank you for everything. Memories in Ausmat, studying together and psychology too! I miss the time I sleepover at your place :p Hope u and Jevon would be happy always yah! Stay sweet buddy (:
Next in line would be Krystal Voon and the gang! Kim, though I just know you, you're a damn nice girl. The only thing is that you always bully my baby turtle! ): Krystal Voon! Chabo! Thank you for being a great sis and lending me ears when I needed it. Talking late night, sharing thoughts,sleepover, shopping, selfies and everything. My life in Sunway would not be great without u there. Thank you for helping me to move out from my unit on 30/11~ One phone call and this girl come with taxi to help me. Sibeh touched! Thank you Adrian for being there with me when I was damn down and sad. Thank you for telling me stuffs that you would not tell anyone else. Really, I appreaciate our friendship damn much! stay happy with her k :p
Followed by Kinji, Stephanie and Vicky. Thank you for being such awesome friends and spending the night with me in Starbucks celebrating my bday. I have too much things to say to you guys. You guys are always there. Kinji, thanks for the days and time we spent together. You're the one that can make me cry and laugh at the same time. And only in front of you would I cry like a baby releasing stress. Sharing all my thoughts and my days in school. Thank you. Steph n Vicky, pls stay sweet! I remember we used to hand out, dinner, supper, shopping, play pool many other stuffs! I miss you guys! ):
Then, thank you chiah chiah :D for the awesome bday lunch treat at Tony Romas with your sweet babies! (: Night time spent eating buffet at your house, celebrating Isaiah full moon party and also Isaac's 2nd year old bday. (:
Awesome degree CC kaki : Conrad, Kenneth, Jun Wei. Miss you guys lots too. Miss Kenneth's house more though ;p thank you for all the things you guys have done.Especially when u guys brought me to JPA office to settle my things and the dinner we ate at JOGOYA <3 dare="" dont="" fei="" forget="" guys="" hahahha="" nbsp="" p="" to="" u="">
Thank you everybody for being in my life (:
Monday, December 16, 2013
Sunday, April 14, 2013
心事
一星期里 总会有这么一天
看见一直以来 自己所忽略的事情
就好像 自从开始了这一段路程 自己选择封闭自己
不掺朋友 不是故意的 只是发现自己和他们没有共同话题 没有办法和他们一起谈谈
这一切 都是从ALSCO起
自从被他们看不起 就没有办法看得起自己
总觉得 自己什么都不是
不喜欢 真的很不喜欢这里
想离开 但又离不开 这种感觉 很不好受
慢慢的 我好像没有了所谓的知心朋友 只好找回从前的朋友
每一个人都moved on了 只剩下我一个在原地 一直往后看
和琦的关系 很像没有那么好了 还是从来都没有很好过？ 我不懂
她的事 我不知道
我已经不是她最好的朋友了吧 是我封闭自己 不能怪其他人
跟Yan Ying的关系 越来越差
每次跟她笑 她都不理
我想 我是累了 不知道自己做错了什么 不想修补了
我安慰自己 没关系的
再过7个月 我们就各走各的了 也没差那一段时间
我不想问 而想她们把事情 自己和我分享 不想烦她们
所以 不回家
我 很空虚。
Sunday, December 23, 2012
曾经
曾经 我也是哪个为了钢琴疯狂的女孩
每天弹钢琴 一首接一首 不停地锻炼手指
不断提升自己
坐在钢琴前别人说什么我都听不见
说什么也不想停下来
如今 没有钢琴的日子 过了快一年了
起初的热情 到哪去了？
每天弹钢琴 一首接一首 不停地锻炼手指
不断提升自己
坐在钢琴前别人说什么我都听不见
说什么也不想停下来
如今 没有钢琴的日子 过了快一年了
起初的热情 到哪去了？
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
The past
It had been ages since i last visited and write down my feelings my thoughts.
Everything is so freaking different nowadays, not to say that I've made a crazy decision to quit ausmat and go on my a levels life but then i dont know. Sometimes i feel lost. And I really dont know what I'm doing. What I'm aiming for. What I'm really meant for. And what freaks me out is that the path that im heading to is not an easy path but a path to the top universities. They told me all those top students used to break down in their university life before they are even successful. They were lost. They forgot what drove them there. They could not find reasons to hang on, to move on and at that moment of life they feel senseless. But the point is, I have been trying really damn hard, to prove to everyone that I'm not like them, that I'm special, that I'm capable in dealing my own problems. And. It doesnt work.
It really doesn't work. I dont want to be like any of them. I dont want to feel senseless, to feel empty and lost. I actually hated the thought of being weak. I deny my weakness. I deny my unabilities. I dont wanna see through it and admit that I'm not strong enough. In actual fact I dont want anybody to even recognise a slight weakness in me and that is why. That is the exact reason that make me weak. The mind cept that do not wanna surrender, to not wanna lose, the so called kiasu-ness in me. This spirit can be powerful and useful but it did the opposite to me. And so. I broke down. I succumbed to failure.
The faces burnt in my memory. The way they convey their messages through the way they look at me, through their body language, through their very choice of words. FUCK. I know I'm not good enough, I'm not fit to be in there so what. Get up and walk out of the door. The very minute I'm out of the room, i was surrounded by crowds, peers. Their look and the hope of further questioning me about the session drives me nuts. The moment one asked how was it, I screamed inside my heart. I barked, "Nothing better!" and stormed off. My vision blurred. The frustration and anger enveloped me. I could not think and the tears in my eyes scalded me. It hurts. It really does. I could not hold on anymore, not even a second. As the familiar ringtone rang, I answered in difficulty. It's almost impossible for me to figure out what the other party had been babbling about, not with all the furies and fire burning in me. In the midst of mapping what the other party was saying, I kept breathing in and out, trying to calm down, trying to cool my emotions and getting control over them. I figured my way to the dark alley and continued to walk, faster and faster. I ended up bursting into tears. Releasing my wrath, my depression, my sentiments.
As the tears flowed down my cheek, so do my hope draining out of me. I fell into a pit of darkness where I could not see myself and fear engulfed me. The sentence "anyone out there could be better than you. I do not see the point of including you into the team" and the scene replayed a zillion times in my head. The more I wanted to get it out of me the harder it turned out to be. Perhaps he was right. Perhaps I do not belonged here. Maybe I shouldn't have taken up the challenge because I could not conquer it. And she warned me against it already. It was my choice that I got into that situation. The situation where all my weaknesses are exposed and I was there opened up like a cheap magazine waiting for people criticize and tear me apart. And they were welcomed to do that. In fact, in the society everyone is like a hungry tiger that longed to rip anyone into pieces as soon as their mistakes had been spotted and verified. This is the materialistic part of the world, the one that we are not aware of or more appropriately protected from, by our parents and elders.
As time passes, the cruel facts started sinking in our heart. Though we might not like it but there they are, all lying out there for us to discover. It is like figuring your way towards paradise, towards your dreams, but the path, it is fulled with grenade buried underground. One single step that you accidentally took, Boom. It goes off and there goes your life.
Letting loose of my feelings like a running river, I vowed to myself that I will never let anyone grab any opportunity to do this to me again. Ever. I sat on the isolated stairs, staring at the black sky. There's no sign of blinking stars and the wind caressed me. I shivered. Looking back my life, I never screwed anything up like this before. I went through interviews and they were never like this. Maybe at the very first place I personally do not have the passion in it. But, how could they destroy my confidence in just a blink of eye? Whats that I do not possess creativity, that nothing differs me from others? How dare them.
That was the last straw. I felt stupid in my entire one month life. I felt pointless putting in efforts to do things. Chemistry made me feel stupid. The marks and grades I got for my practical just proved to me that my skills are still below average. I could never get my titration done properly. It's always not enough time, error in preparing the substance etc. Fortunately I did not failed any of my tests but the marks I've got is really atrocious. I am not prepared for this. Physically and also mentally. What's wrong with me? The teachers must have thought that I am such a stupid kid. I am always the one that gives the wrong answer. There were times in my life I felt like this. The last time was before SPM. The problem is I do not expect stress and pressure to come so fast. I thought they will be away until next year. But I was wrong. As soon as I began running in the A levels race, the pressure comes along.The teachers referred us as the Bursary students, the group that is expected to be top in the world. I do not know whether I really belonged here, that I have made a right decision, that I can hold on or not. Forget about it.
I could not forgive them. I am not mad about it anymore but the minute I saw any of the members, I walk away. I could not bear the thought of talking with the bunch of idiots slash monkeys slash think-you-so-great morons.
I decided. I need assurance. I need my family. I need support.
Everything is so freaking different nowadays, not to say that I've made a crazy decision to quit ausmat and go on my a levels life but then i dont know. Sometimes i feel lost. And I really dont know what I'm doing. What I'm aiming for. What I'm really meant for. And what freaks me out is that the path that im heading to is not an easy path but a path to the top universities. They told me all those top students used to break down in their university life before they are even successful. They were lost. They forgot what drove them there. They could not find reasons to hang on, to move on and at that moment of life they feel senseless. But the point is, I have been trying really damn hard, to prove to everyone that I'm not like them, that I'm special, that I'm capable in dealing my own problems. And. It doesnt work.
It really doesn't work. I dont want to be like any of them. I dont want to feel senseless, to feel empty and lost. I actually hated the thought of being weak. I deny my weakness. I deny my unabilities. I dont wanna see through it and admit that I'm not strong enough. In actual fact I dont want anybody to even recognise a slight weakness in me and that is why. That is the exact reason that make me weak. The mind cept that do not wanna surrender, to not wanna lose, the so called kiasu-ness in me. This spirit can be powerful and useful but it did the opposite to me. And so. I broke down. I succumbed to failure.
The faces burnt in my memory. The way they convey their messages through the way they look at me, through their body language, through their very choice of words. FUCK. I know I'm not good enough, I'm not fit to be in there so what. Get up and walk out of the door. The very minute I'm out of the room, i was surrounded by crowds, peers. Their look and the hope of further questioning me about the session drives me nuts. The moment one asked how was it, I screamed inside my heart. I barked, "Nothing better!" and stormed off. My vision blurred. The frustration and anger enveloped me. I could not think and the tears in my eyes scalded me. It hurts. It really does. I could not hold on anymore, not even a second. As the familiar ringtone rang, I answered in difficulty. It's almost impossible for me to figure out what the other party had been babbling about, not with all the furies and fire burning in me. In the midst of mapping what the other party was saying, I kept breathing in and out, trying to calm down, trying to cool my emotions and getting control over them. I figured my way to the dark alley and continued to walk, faster and faster. I ended up bursting into tears. Releasing my wrath, my depression, my sentiments.
As the tears flowed down my cheek, so do my hope draining out of me. I fell into a pit of darkness where I could not see myself and fear engulfed me. The sentence "anyone out there could be better than you. I do not see the point of including you into the team" and the scene replayed a zillion times in my head. The more I wanted to get it out of me the harder it turned out to be. Perhaps he was right. Perhaps I do not belonged here. Maybe I shouldn't have taken up the challenge because I could not conquer it. And she warned me against it already. It was my choice that I got into that situation. The situation where all my weaknesses are exposed and I was there opened up like a cheap magazine waiting for people criticize and tear me apart. And they were welcomed to do that. In fact, in the society everyone is like a hungry tiger that longed to rip anyone into pieces as soon as their mistakes had been spotted and verified. This is the materialistic part of the world, the one that we are not aware of or more appropriately protected from, by our parents and elders.
As time passes, the cruel facts started sinking in our heart. Though we might not like it but there they are, all lying out there for us to discover. It is like figuring your way towards paradise, towards your dreams, but the path, it is fulled with grenade buried underground. One single step that you accidentally took, Boom. It goes off and there goes your life.
Letting loose of my feelings like a running river, I vowed to myself that I will never let anyone grab any opportunity to do this to me again. Ever. I sat on the isolated stairs, staring at the black sky. There's no sign of blinking stars and the wind caressed me. I shivered. Looking back my life, I never screwed anything up like this before. I went through interviews and they were never like this. Maybe at the very first place I personally do not have the passion in it. But, how could they destroy my confidence in just a blink of eye? Whats that I do not possess creativity, that nothing differs me from others? How dare them.
That was the last straw. I felt stupid in my entire one month life. I felt pointless putting in efforts to do things. Chemistry made me feel stupid. The marks and grades I got for my practical just proved to me that my skills are still below average. I could never get my titration done properly. It's always not enough time, error in preparing the substance etc. Fortunately I did not failed any of my tests but the marks I've got is really atrocious. I am not prepared for this. Physically and also mentally. What's wrong with me? The teachers must have thought that I am such a stupid kid. I am always the one that gives the wrong answer. There were times in my life I felt like this. The last time was before SPM. The problem is I do not expect stress and pressure to come so fast. I thought they will be away until next year. But I was wrong. As soon as I began running in the A levels race, the pressure comes along.The teachers referred us as the Bursary students, the group that is expected to be top in the world. I do not know whether I really belonged here, that I have made a right decision, that I can hold on or not. Forget about it.
I could not forgive them. I am not mad about it anymore but the minute I saw any of the members, I walk away. I could not bear the thought of talking with the bunch of idiots slash monkeys slash think-you-so-great morons.
I decided. I need assurance. I need my family. I need support.
27/11
一闪一闪亮晶晶 满天都是小星星 (现代版)
满了一整天 换来休息的free period 还不错
朋友生病了 要照顾
忙忙忙 书都读不完
累累累 累了也要拼
不知道自己在忙什么
今天是yan ying的生日
也是uncle的生日
uncle 生日快乐 (:
满了一整天 换来休息的free period 还不错
朋友生病了 要照顾
忙忙忙 书都读不完
累累累 累了也要拼
不知道自己在忙什么
今天是yan ying的生日
也是uncle的生日
uncle 生日快乐 (:
Saturday, May 19, 2012
Thursday, May 17, 2012
Dreams (:
today woke up in a dream..
dreamt about my new 2012 life in college..
saw Ruby Law in my dreams..
and a few friends...
we chat, we played, we formed our own unique group
we joked, we laughed and we carved memorable memories in our life..
I remember their laughter, their smile, their way of talking..
I see them in my life, changing me into who i am now..
the moments we spent together are priceless.,
nothing could replaced it..
suddenly so miss ruby law -.-
that cha bo, everyday new picture one! hahah
i wonder will we meet again after this year..
although i quitted AUSMAT already,luckily im still in sunway (:
Ruby Law! you dare to forget me one day then you know!
I bec ghost also haunt you ar! hahahhaha :P
--ahjo's secret garden--
dreamt about my new 2012 life in college..
saw Ruby Law in my dreams..
and a few friends...
we chat, we played, we formed our own unique group
we joked, we laughed and we carved memorable memories in our life..
I remember their laughter, their smile, their way of talking..
I see them in my life, changing me into who i am now..
the moments we spent together are priceless.,
nothing could replaced it..
suddenly so miss ruby law -.-
that cha bo, everyday new picture one! hahah
i wonder will we meet again after this year..
although i quitted AUSMAT already,luckily im still in sunway (:
Ruby Law! you dare to forget me one day then you know!
I bec ghost also haunt you ar! hahahhaha :P
--ahjo's secret garden--
Saturday, April 28, 2012
一人行
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| 超爱我的发色! <3 :D |
许许多多的第一次 在短短的6个小时里消失了
一个人
把目光往外注 让一切都牢印在心里
门开门关
乘客不断的增加减少
我依然坐在同一个位置上
静静地等待时间慢慢的流走
--ahjo's secret garden--
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
心痛
当我为你流泪的时候，
因为我还深爱着你
如果有一天，我不再为你流泪了，
因为我心伤了，也慢慢学会了放弃
为什么你说出那句话的时候，
我没有心痛
也许，
我们不是同一路上的人，
各自有各自的幸福天下，
没有放不下的东西，伤心了自然会放下
后来，连心痛也失去了知觉 ♥
因为我还深爱着你
如果有一天，我不再为你流泪了，
因为我心伤了，也慢慢学会了放弃
为什么你说出那句话的时候，
我没有心痛
也许，
我们不是同一路上的人，
各自有各自的幸福天下，
没有放不下的东西，伤心了自然会放下
后来，连心痛也失去了知觉 ♥
Saturday, April 14, 2012
14/04/2012
至茹仪&自己:
别再那么犹豫不决，决定了的事情就努力做到最好的。
别再沉沦在那友谊的挣扎，一切都会过去的。
别再不开心，沉默不语；这一点都不像你，因为我认识的你是开心、开朗的
别再深夜里为了烦人的心事影响睡眠，隔天还要看到我的勒 :P
别说自己不会，因为你自己的潜能还没被你发觉罢了
要说，我
是做得到的
是值得每天都开心的
是一颗还没完全磨成型的钻石
现在那微微的亮光不是每个人能发觉的
等到磨成了闪亮的钻石时 每个人会惊觉的 (:
--ahjo's secret garden--
至亲爱的你们
“碧云天,黄叶地; 秋色连波,波上寒烟翠”
熟练地朗起当年华文班我们一起背诵的名句精华，回忆涌上心头，顿时有种说不出的感觉。不懂是不是太久没有用华语表达自己的心得，突然很想念华语。更是想念当年的我们，站成一排 一起朗读华文的时光。 从左到右，我，秋，涵，萍，倪，祈，茹 (找不到她的名字)……
一排的兄弟们 从陌生人慢慢演变成形影不离的buddy你说是这是巧合吗?还是宿命?或许更贴切点-是缘分? 能把完全不同，独特的每一个人，融合成一体真不简单。每个人的思想观念都不同，能达到成为一体的境界，又有几个能做到?
我们之间的默契，不是口头上，表面上罢了；而是真正了解彼此，不再需要用话语来表达自己想要什么，其他人就已经懂并明白了。
一个眼神，你我就懂彼此想的是什么;
一个表情，你我就明白对方心里正面对什么样的纠结;
一个动作，你我就知道我们需要什么;
这一切的一切是时间磨练出来的。时间，它在我们的旅途中留下痕迹。所有经历过的大小事情都成为回忆，成为生活上的调味剂。
xxx
秋，
感激你在我五年的中学生涯伴我走过风风雨雨。伤心有你在我身旁，开心有你分享，委屈有你诉苦，生气有你开导，失望有你肩膀可以依靠； 一个拥抱足以让我把所有的感情崩放出来，在你怀里哭出声来，把一切不开心的事，化作眼泪滴下来… 在这里，没有你的怀抱，没有你的笑声，没有你的日子；我真的不习惯… 一通电话，我们又一起分享拿到成绩的喜悦；当所有的努力开花结果，我们一起尝到果实的甜蜜时，我们心里想着同一件事情-又是时候烦恼该怎么走下一步。生活就好似走一步好的象棋。每一步都要经过三番考虑后再决定接下来的一步；一个不小心走错步想回头也得看对方让不让你退。那一步不小心走错得棋，可以是你我在生活中的转折点，转向更好的未来；也可以让你我沦落入生活阴暗的一面，踏上不归路。
愿你我一起达到一致的目标，又能再一次一起度过我们的求学生涯，共同创造属于我们的回忆。
xxx
萍，
你在我生活中扮演了很重要的角色。忆起早晨里的我们 一起牵着手在学校里奔跑，所有的老师看到我们俩走在一起准没好事，一定又是找早上班的学生了。下课，我俩同一步 一起到食堂买食物、公司食物；午餐到aunty家一起分享你我的食物。老师们都以为我们真的是亲姐妹，连名字也叫错，需要好久的时间才能分辨谁是谁。真的很想念那些时光，那属于我们俩的回忆，是没有人能代替的。有你在我生命中给我提示，让我在寻找自己的路途中，终于发现了真正的自我；在我迷茫的时候，拉我一把 让我回到正路。你的话，我记得。 我人在这里，遇到委屈、被人欺负，想都不想就播了你的号码，想和你诉苦。你在话筒的另一边，听见我的抽泣声，一定很慌张、不知所措；但你很快就定下来，冷静地想该怎么安慰我。你的话语让我吃下定心丸，让我从被背叛的伤害中转过身来慢慢地再次披上属于自己的保护层。这一次，你让我学会披上更厚的保护甲，不再让同一些人再度伤害我。 谢谢你 (:
希望你在另一边能成功地创造出一片天地，活出自己的色彩。
xxx
琦
总是会不经意想起你的微笑。虽然我们认识的日子不是说很长，只是短短的2年罢了，可是我们之间所建立起的友谊绝对超值! 你总是那么坏蛋，每次酸我。我们之间就是少不了酸来酸去。说起来真好笑! 你说话 一针见血，毫不做作，我欣赏! 你所说的每一字每一句都发自你内心，你觉得是那样，就大声地说出自己的意见。也是你，在课业上和我有好的竞争，督促我向上。总听你说 : “考试要到了,我们一起努力,一起考得最好的!这次不可以输给你!” 想到这里，我的嘴角不禁向上扬。 当你看到这里，相信你也和我一样，心里有说不出的平静喜悦吧。这就是中学生涯，你留给我的美好回忆。
还记得我们和萍一起在我家敲敲打打煮出一道道的佳肴吗? 那是中四我们一起补习前的一幕。我们一起煮过西式早餐午餐等。更好笑的是!有一次，你居然带泡面去我家煮，好像我家没有面。 == 哈哈 又有一次，你来我家想冲凉，但又没有带衣服来换，结果就换上我的衣去上课。这些芝麻绿豆不懂你还记不记得? 说到这里，我的衣还在你那里勒== 哈哈!
你我很喜欢拍照，常常一起拍照。一张张的照片就好像诉说着我们一起经历的事情。我喜欢拍照，因为照片能把人们浸透在喜悦中的表情一一拍下，见证我们曾经一起快乐过。翻回相簿，我们都会不禁意地笑出声。照片能让我开心起来，不再低落。
我在这里祝福你接下来的生活,过得更美好,更丰富。 (:
xxx
涵，
你过得还好吗?我懂你消瘦了很多很多。最近发生了那么多事情。我真的很欣赏你。欣赏你那什么都好，乐观的态度；遇到任何事情，你都能冷静下来，然后给自己一个微笑，在努力地开心起来。我真的很想念你。 让我印象最深刻的就是 我们两自己搬椅子和桌子到班上最后面 然后一起研究物理。 有时，我教你背历史。我，拿着一把marker在白板上涂鸦。望着白板的那些图案及字眼，你，傻眼。 哈哈。把历史从头到尾说了一遍后，我们一起回想刚刚所读的历史。我也还记得，放学了，我们一起躲到prefect room，一起吃冰淇淋。下午班下课时间，我们几个一起卖冰淇淋。数着当天所赚到的钱，我们都笑了。再想回更早的时候，我们一起当图书管理员，一起留下来，迟回家。那些事依然历历在目。
愿你在接下来的路上能找到自己的目标然后追求自己的梦! 你会是一个相当出色的DJ/教授的。加油!
xxx
安、倪、祈、茹
你们都是我很好很好的朋友。陪伴我，让我的中学生涯充满色彩。
安，别紧张。你一定能获得拿奖学金的。不到太担心，你已经做得最好的了。不一定是straight A+的学生占优势，很大可能获得奖学金。对自己有信心点，你行的! 你都可以拿到best leo了，还有什么是不行的?在我心里，Aaron Wong 是个很棒的朋友。我不开心时，你是懂的。在我在KL的这段日子里，谢谢你愿意听我诉说这里的大小事情。也谢谢你，陪伴我度过那漫长的一夜。
倪，呵呵，你和他怎样了哦?好久没八卦你们了。每次问到你们，你就脸红 :P 像个小孩。真的决定读Quantity Servey 了吗? 如果真的决定了，那就放下一整颗心，努力去学，拿到最好的成绩，证明自己。我支持你 (:
xxx
祈&茹:
你们过得怎么样？妈咪，你决定了吗？别再犹豫了。想读nutrition就去读。不要想那么多。读好了，走一步算一步吧。 你应该也是和萍&祈一样读swimburne吧? Swimburne 其实也蛮不错的。至少在那里，你有姐妹们和你一起，陪伴你度过大学生涯，这样一来你就不孤单了，也不会太想念家人。祈，还没恭喜你，你和安一样的成绩哦。怎么样？哈哈 听说swimburne还给了你50% scholarship哦，不错。
真诚地希望你们每一个人都过得开开心心，拥有美好的未来啦! (:
08/04/2012 笔
--ahjo's secret garden--
Sunday, March 18, 2012
开心
呵呵 这么久没有好好开心地写部落格了
今天开心 很有心情写
上个礼拜一 Kinji 带我去 Kajang 他放假了 两个礼拜
去他家睡一个晚上
auntie 人很好 很好客
晚餐有5道菜 :P 多幸福勒 哈哈
kinji 回 kajang 看医生咯
yam gong ar. 一个人要吃5种药
谁叫他病了一个礼拜 拖了那么久才去看医生
然后我们去吃satay <3
然后看戏咯 hmm..
挺开心的 :D
隔天回来上课 嘿嘿 第一节没有课 :P
kinji 晚上还买了 葡萄牙蛋挞 给我 嘿嘿 :P
hmm..
一个礼拜的时光 匆匆忙忙就这样过了
这个礼拜比较轻松 我的时间表被重排
每科都抽出1节当tutorial 所以我就少了几堂课 哈哈
不过礼拜一考试了
考两天就放5天假 哈哈
可以利用这个时间做功课 嘿嘿 然后就可以赶上老师所教的东西了 :D
放假后继续考试 ):
对了 我的物理 1.8/2 嘿嘿
化学 24/33 班上最高 :D
eald 更厉害 戏都没有看完就要考试 写movie review
没有准备有6.5/10也算很好了啦 很开心
psa assignment 1 拿了 8/10
野蛮满意自己的成绩啦 不要跟人比
别人都很厉害 虽然自己不是最厉害的 不过已经很好了啦
知足常乐嘛
In God's eyes you're enough, because he is enough <3
16/3/12
去打pool 嘿嘿
坐kinji的车 :P
在那之前 我这个贪吃鬼 想吃snowflake 嘿嘿
结果 kinji带我去吃 :D
stephy 跟他朋友先去打咯
我们吃 豆奶系列的 <3
不过每次都是他还钱 很不好意思
改次我要还!! 超好吃的
kinji还把snowflake的cop卡给我 >.< :P
打pool! :D
从来不会打pool的我居然赢了2 场 :P
还有一场是jason打fail jor 所以我就这样赢了
哈哈 我跟stephy不知道吃错什么药 跑去买xtra spicy香肠
结果吃了一口 两个人辣到跑到厕所去 哈哈
眼睛红红 鼻子红红 超好笑
不过我在吃了香肠以后 就会打pool了 sor jor gua. :P hehe
之后我跟stephy还打赌 谁输pool就吃那个超辣香肠
结果我赢了 哈哈! :D
然后我跟其他人玩咯
kinji 故意让我的 我看得出 >.<
后来还不是她赢 :P 哈哈
他真的很厉害啦 一次连连进5粒球 其中是一打2粒进 geng :D 哈哈
那个傻瓜 还去买indo mee leh 不过又不吃蛋 叫我吃
hmm.. 很开心
那个傻瓜恋我的床 :P 不过又死不承认 哈哈
不过我宿舍有人 ):
17/3/12
今天被拉去看戏 (被stephy骗去) >.<
在外面吃午餐--酿豆腐 + milo ais! <3
哈哈 然后看戏 吃冰淇淋
gelato 千万不可以吃 不好吃的):
我比较喜欢moo cow! :D
上个礼拜日去mid valley 吃泰国餐后吃moo cow! 开心
跟ashley一起 还看项链 鞋子 包包等 不过没有买啦 哈哈
今天 看好戏去 hong kong restaurant 吃
不过我只点了 绿茶 呵呵
减肥 -.- 变肥了 天天被人念 >.<
今天心血来潮捐钱 rm40!
换来很多coupon LOL..
后来买食物 想自己下厨
krystal 也来了 嘿嘿
买了很多 :P
她还买了一件裙 很美 哈哈
我差一点也买了 还好没有 :P
去看包包 我真的要买一个小的包包放我钱包等 出门容易 >.<
哈哈 回来我们吃粥 :PP 还读书:P
2.30 AM 刚刚我们又去煮面吃 真耐吃 :P
hehe.. <3
我跟美女一起睡觉! :P
几幸福勒 哈哈
还有美女帮我戴手链 :P
羡慕死kinji :P
明天跟krystal一起煮macaroni + soup + dlllll :P 哈哈
嘿嘿 然后还会煮红豆水吧 :D
kinji 喜欢吃咯
那个傻瓜刚才也恋我的床 :P
可是宿舍有人 哈哈
室友在学书 呵呵
好了 不说了
krystal在催啊 她要用电脑了
拜拜! :D
--ahjo's secret garden--
今天开心 很有心情写
上个礼拜一 Kinji 带我去 Kajang 他放假了 两个礼拜
去他家睡一个晚上
auntie 人很好 很好客
晚餐有5道菜 :P 多幸福勒 哈哈
kinji 回 kajang 看医生咯
yam gong ar. 一个人要吃5种药
谁叫他病了一个礼拜 拖了那么久才去看医生
然后我们去吃satay <3
然后看戏咯 hmm..
挺开心的 :D
隔天回来上课 嘿嘿 第一节没有课 :P
kinji 晚上还买了 葡萄牙蛋挞 给我 嘿嘿 :P
hmm..
一个礼拜的时光 匆匆忙忙就这样过了
这个礼拜比较轻松 我的时间表被重排
每科都抽出1节当tutorial 所以我就少了几堂课 哈哈
不过礼拜一考试了
考两天就放5天假 哈哈
可以利用这个时间做功课 嘿嘿 然后就可以赶上老师所教的东西了 :D
放假后继续考试 ):
对了 我的物理 1.8/2 嘿嘿
化学 24/33 班上最高 :D
eald 更厉害 戏都没有看完就要考试 写movie review
没有准备有6.5/10也算很好了啦 很开心
psa assignment 1 拿了 8/10
野蛮满意自己的成绩啦 不要跟人比
别人都很厉害 虽然自己不是最厉害的 不过已经很好了啦
知足常乐嘛
In God's eyes you're enough, because he is enough <3
16/3/12
去打pool 嘿嘿
坐kinji的车 :P
在那之前 我这个贪吃鬼 想吃snowflake 嘿嘿
结果 kinji带我去吃 :D
stephy 跟他朋友先去打咯
我们吃 豆奶系列的 <3
不过每次都是他还钱 很不好意思
改次我要还!! 超好吃的
kinji还把snowflake的cop卡给我 >.< :P
打pool! :D
从来不会打pool的我居然赢了2 场 :P
还有一场是jason打fail jor 所以我就这样赢了
哈哈 我跟stephy不知道吃错什么药 跑去买xtra spicy香肠
结果吃了一口 两个人辣到跑到厕所去 哈哈
眼睛红红 鼻子红红 超好笑
不过我在吃了香肠以后 就会打pool了 sor jor gua. :P hehe
之后我跟stephy还打赌 谁输pool就吃那个超辣香肠
结果我赢了 哈哈! :D
然后我跟其他人玩咯
kinji 故意让我的 我看得出 >.<
后来还不是她赢 :P 哈哈
他真的很厉害啦 一次连连进5粒球 其中是一打2粒进 geng :D 哈哈
那个傻瓜 还去买indo mee leh 不过又不吃蛋 叫我吃
hmm.. 很开心
那个傻瓜恋我的床 :P 不过又死不承认 哈哈
不过我宿舍有人 ):
17/3/12
今天被拉去看戏 (被stephy骗去) >.<
在外面吃午餐--酿豆腐 + milo ais! <3
哈哈 然后看戏 吃冰淇淋
gelato 千万不可以吃 不好吃的):
我比较喜欢moo cow! :D
上个礼拜日去mid valley 吃泰国餐后吃moo cow! 开心
跟ashley一起 还看项链 鞋子 包包等 不过没有买啦 哈哈
今天 看好戏去 hong kong restaurant 吃
不过我只点了 绿茶 呵呵
减肥 -.- 变肥了 天天被人念 >.<
今天心血来潮捐钱 rm40!
换来很多coupon LOL..
后来买食物 想自己下厨
krystal 也来了 嘿嘿
买了很多 :P
她还买了一件裙 很美 哈哈
我差一点也买了 还好没有 :P
去看包包 我真的要买一个小的包包放我钱包等 出门容易 >.<
哈哈 回来我们吃粥 :PP 还读书:P
2.30 AM 刚刚我们又去煮面吃 真耐吃 :P
hehe.. <3
我跟美女一起睡觉! :P
几幸福勒 哈哈
还有美女帮我戴手链 :P
羡慕死kinji :P
明天跟krystal一起煮macaroni + soup + dlllll :P 哈哈
嘿嘿 然后还会煮红豆水吧 :D
kinji 喜欢吃咯
那个傻瓜刚才也恋我的床 :P
可是宿舍有人 哈哈
室友在学书 呵呵
好了 不说了
krystal在催啊 她要用电脑了
拜拜! :D
--ahjo's secret garden--
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
21st March
hmm. spm results will be out on 21st march..
but then im sitting for my eald test that day 2pm
kinda worried that if my results are not good,
it will affect my eald paper
cuz i might be too upset to do anything or to use my brain..
physics assessment that day i got 1.8 out of 2..
im contented dy lah..
considered not bad already..
chem i got 24 out of 33
not the best in ausmat but im happy already
cuz its the first subject i do better than my peers..hmm..
kinda emo these few days though..
no reasons..
-emo is good for health- (bullshit i knw) sighhh..
--ahjo's secret garden--
Sunday, March 11, 2012
心情
刚才打给妈咪 第一个反应是:
哈??不是吧?! SPM成绩提早出?! 拜二?! 后天?!!!
还不懂是不是真的 总之 很紧张
今天 穿着4寸半的鞋去教堂
哪里懂 又跑去mid valley逛街
花了rm30-- 和Ashley & Rei 两姐弟吃泰国餐 一句话-辣!
后来又买了Moo Cow+ choc Chip topping <3 超爱的~
后悔没有拍到照片
逛了一天去看项链和包包
vicci 项链和包包 超美的 但价钱也超美!
那个粉红色包包 超可爱 但是厚 价钱RM89!
那个包包很小个的勒 >.<
真的很喜欢 不过没钱了啦
等我做工先吧!
bonita的项链也超美的 RM33 before discount.
discount 20% 咯自己算! :P
有十字架的 很亮很美
也有其他可爱的形状 真的超爱的
唉 不可以乱花钱
我要省钱省钱! 这个月花太多了 花在吃的咯
吃到fei jor tim. >.<
刚才 kinji 送我 mr siew bao的 葡萄牙蛋塔 超好吃的!
也舍不得吃 :D
不过不吃的话他再也不送了咯 所以就乖乖吃了咯
嘿嘿 :D
好了啦 晚安 去做功课了啦 (:
--ahjo's secret garden--
哈??不是吧?! SPM成绩提早出?! 拜二?! 后天?!!!
还不懂是不是真的 总之 很紧张
今天 穿着4寸半的鞋去教堂
哪里懂 又跑去mid valley逛街
花了rm30-- 和Ashley & Rei 两姐弟吃泰国餐 一句话-辣!
后来又买了Moo Cow+ choc Chip topping <3 超爱的~
后悔没有拍到照片
逛了一天去看项链和包包
vicci 项链和包包 超美的 但价钱也超美!
那个粉红色包包 超可爱 但是厚 价钱RM89!
那个包包很小个的勒 >.<
真的很喜欢 不过没钱了啦
等我做工先吧!
bonita的项链也超美的 RM33 before discount.
discount 20% 咯自己算! :P
有十字架的 很亮很美
也有其他可爱的形状 真的超爱的
唉 不可以乱花钱
我要省钱省钱! 这个月花太多了 花在吃的咯
吃到fei jor tim. >.<
刚才 kinji 送我 mr siew bao的 葡萄牙蛋塔 超好吃的!
也舍不得吃 :D
不过不吃的话他再也不送了咯 所以就乖乖吃了咯
嘿嘿 :D
好了啦 晚安 去做功课了啦 (:
--ahjo's secret garden--
B.E.S.T
--I.M.I.S.S.H.E.R <3--
I'll try my very best to be the best!
Even if I'm not the best,I know I've tried my best (:
--ahjo's secret garden--
(:
不知道自己多久没有update部落各了
只知道这段日子里 很忙 很忙
差不多每天都有考试
每天都得温书 复习
真的很累
每天学会了很迟很迟睡
基本上功课是多到做不完
物理从上个月 卡在projectile motion不会做到今天 依然还没有做完
一题题目 我都可以花一个钟头想答案
hmm spm 成绩快出了吧
满期待的 但同时也很害怕
害怕我做得不够好 考得不够好
让很多人失望
真的很怕
从来不曾失败过 真的怕这次失败 :'C
怎么update blog 都是emo emo的？
咳.. 我想家了
--ahjo's secret garden--
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Bored
I'll be back to Kuching SOON <3
I'm seriously gonna get a cute card reader after CNY :D RM14.90
hmm go back kuching i must makan banyak banyakkkkk :DDD
then come back sunway become fat pig jor..
hehe..so tired ar today..
not many homeworks though hehe..
cuz i done it dy! :D
wanna do revision lor...
currently in the library now..
so geng can on fb and play game + watch movie here lorhhh..
only that i dun have much time niaaaa..
daily routine:
wake up--go school--come back--bath--wash clothes--do homeworkk--
by the time i finish my homeworkkk,its time to sleep liaooo.. >.<
i only got weekends to go to play nia..>.<
but after cny weekends oso must study liaooo
who asked me to sign up for 50-50 course?
50% exams 50% course workkk..
haiyyaaaa..
go back kch must bring my notebookssss,dictionariess, English vocab books,compasses dll and many mnay A4 paper..>.<
actually can buy at popular @ sunway piramid lahhh..
but i no $$ liaoooooo.. >.<
dad left with me de money already spend till 7788 loooo..
and then my external exam fees still haven pay ar..>.< SIGGGHHH
RM1500 lehhhh..
if i pay my account negative liao loooo
haiz...
go back kch bring money come kl spend agn..>.<
food oso exp everything exp ar..>.<
--ahjo's secret garden--
I'm seriously gonna get a cute card reader after CNY :D RM14.90
hmm go back kuching i must makan banyak banyakkkkk :DDD
then come back sunway become fat pig jor..
hehe..so tired ar today..
not many homeworks though hehe..
cuz i done it dy! :D
wanna do revision lor...
currently in the library now..
so geng can on fb and play game + watch movie here lorhhh..
only that i dun have much time niaaaa..
daily routine:
wake up--go school--come back--bath--wash clothes--do homeworkk--
by the time i finish my homeworkkk,its time to sleep liaooo.. >.<
i only got weekends to go to play nia..>.<
but after cny weekends oso must study liaooo
who asked me to sign up for 50-50 course?
50% exams 50% course workkk..
haiyyaaaa..
go back kch must bring my notebookssss,dictionariess, English vocab books,compasses dll and many mnay A4 paper..>.<
actually can buy at popular @ sunway piramid lahhh..
but i no $$ liaoooooo.. >.<
dad left with me de money already spend till 7788 loooo..
and then my external exam fees still haven pay ar..>.< SIGGGHHH
RM1500 lehhhh..
if i pay my account negative liao loooo
haiz...
go back kch bring money come kl spend agn..>.<
food oso exp everything exp ar..>.<
--ahjo's secret garden--
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Ice skating :D
现在在RUBY LAW的家
昨天我们几个去溜冰啦!
我暂时没有照片咯
等有了我就会上传! 哈哈
我,Ruby, Mok Mok,Hoe Hoe,Kok Hong还有Jun Yi 6个人
mok mok 跟我都是第一次溜冰咯
哈哈，那个mok mok都不知多勇敢啊
自己跑到中间那边学溜 不过他很厉害咯
慢慢溜也很厉害咯 不过一共业跌了3次啦 哈哈哈!!
我勒 还好有HoeHoe带我溜咯 哈哈
他自己都已经差不多自身难保料还带我溜勒 溜到他脚痛 哈哈哈哈哈!!
不过跟他溜好过跟mok mok溜啦
mok mok我拉着他然后我溜比较快 他就不稳料 哈哈
HoeHoe很有力 拉住他可以溜很快 嘿嘿
跌倒我整身湿完咯! 不过很过瘾啦 heheheh :DD
我还碰到 POT LU 一家 哈哈
溜冰好玩是好玩啦 可是本小姐跌到3次耶 >.<
现在要学书料 拜拜! :D
--ahjo's secret garden--
昨天我们几个去溜冰啦!
我暂时没有照片咯
等有了我就会上传! 哈哈
我,Ruby, Mok Mok,Hoe Hoe,Kok Hong还有Jun Yi 6个人
mok mok 跟我都是第一次溜冰咯
哈哈，那个mok mok都不知多勇敢啊
自己跑到中间那边学溜 不过他很厉害咯
慢慢溜也很厉害咯 不过一共业跌了3次啦 哈哈哈!!
我勒 还好有HoeHoe带我溜咯 哈哈
他自己都已经差不多自身难保料还带我溜勒 溜到他脚痛 哈哈哈哈哈!!
不过跟他溜好过跟mok mok溜啦
mok mok我拉着他然后我溜比较快 他就不稳料 哈哈
HoeHoe很有力 拉住他可以溜很快 嘿嘿
跌倒我整身湿完咯! 不过很过瘾啦 heheheh :DD
我还碰到 POT LU 一家 哈哈
溜冰好玩是好玩啦 可是本小姐跌到3次耶 >.<
现在要学书料 拜拜! :D
--ahjo's secret garden--
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
HAHA!
so long dint update my dear bloggie liao!
well im in the library now! SUNWAY COLLEGE's LIBRARY! :DD
then just now i read finish 2 chapters of chemistry le lo..
Chem class so bored weiiii..but the teacher so damn nice! hehe!
today i only got 2 class ar.. Phy and Chem ^-^!
Every wednesday i can sleep late!teehee!
then this morning duno why automatically wake at 6.45am >.<
then baru realise last nite too tired until forgot to off computer before slp HAHA!
then after breakfast i study PHYSICS lo :D
i know i know super KS HAHA!
but its my homework mah..i finish all the questions in 40 minutes! :D
then go school le lo.. HEHE
then my other fren so geng! he go class alr finish le lo!
then he say ytd 4 hours in library so he finish CHEHHHHH so HARDWORKING ar /.\
i got my group assignment topic ytd but then today alr finish the assignment!
LOL. group leader too efficient..
recycle last time's presentation LOL HAHA
oh oh,dun wanna continue write liaoo..
go MAKANNNNN :D or maybe go study room X:
see first larh! and..
nowadays no pictures for each blog liao!
ps.. i forgot to buy card reader thats why!
AND!
my phone spoilt liao =.= SIENN
my pretty pretty pictures are in KUCHING's COMPUTERRRR! X: haiya >.<
thats all for now!~ BYEE! :D
--ahjo's secret garden--
so long dint update my dear bloggie liao!
well im in the library now! SUNWAY COLLEGE's LIBRARY! :DD
then just now i read finish 2 chapters of chemistry le lo..
Chem class so bored weiiii..but the teacher so damn nice! hehe!
today i only got 2 class ar.. Phy and Chem ^-^!
Every wednesday i can sleep late!teehee!
then this morning duno why automatically wake at 6.45am >.<
then baru realise last nite too tired until forgot to off computer before slp HAHA!
then after breakfast i study PHYSICS lo :D
i know i know super KS HAHA!
but its my homework mah..i finish all the questions in 40 minutes! :D
then go school le lo.. HEHE
then my other fren so geng! he go class alr finish le lo!
then he say ytd 4 hours in library so he finish CHEHHHHH so HARDWORKING ar /.\
i got my group assignment topic ytd but then today alr finish the assignment!
LOL. group leader too efficient..
recycle last time's presentation LOL HAHA
oh oh,dun wanna continue write liaoo..
go MAKANNNNN :D or maybe go study room X:
see first larh! and..
nowadays no pictures for each blog liao!
ps.. i forgot to buy card reader thats why!
AND!
my phone spoilt liao =.= SIENN
my pretty pretty pictures are in KUCHING's COMPUTERRRR! X: haiya >.<
thats all for now!~ BYEE! :D
--ahjo's secret garden--
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
考虑
College 生活 一句话 赞!
KL 一句评语 好多印度人!
短短两天时间 就遇到了好多好多印度人! X:
今天累了 不习惯用这台手提电脑打汉字 所以懒惰写部落格
不好意思了!
对了 我很好 请不要担心
我的室友是印度人 (:
--ahjo's secret garden--
KL 一句评语 好多印度人!
短短两天时间 就遇到了好多好多印度人! X:
今天累了 不习惯用这台手提电脑打汉字 所以懒惰写部落格
不好意思了!
对了 我很好 请不要担心
我的室友是印度人 (:
--ahjo's secret garden--
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