im soo tired of myself..
SIGH..-.-
today i get back my test papers..
bm essay lari drp kehendak soalan
english supposed to write more than one lesson but i only wrote one..
add maths paper 1 the last two page wrong all
paper 2 use wrong formulaes
copy wrong question -.-
moral all nilai wrong..SIENNNN
physics essay 20 marks rite?
i wrong more than half
i got only EIGHT out of 20 -.-
ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..
sighhh..
wad happened to me?
im so angry at myselfff.. ):
where's the Josephine that i know b4?
the one very lihai study de?
the one can memories thgs easily in a short time?
that isnt that careless?
that strive hard to make her parents proud?
that will nvr SIEN of studies?
that will always put her studies at the first place?
the one alwayss smile alot?
WHERE IS THAT JOSEPHINE!
sighhh..
i dun wanna care anymore
i dun wanna zheng qu anythg anymore
no point..
no matter how much effort i put in..
the result will still be the same..
i studied SUPER DUPER HARD this time OKAYY -.-
i start studying 3 weeks before exam n i revise it daily..
i memories word by word
i read n read n read
i make notes
i do exercises
i dont think i study lesser than them?
i dont think i put lesser effort than them
but how come..
in this yr..
2011
everythg chged?
i had no idea..
im tired..
tired..
i cried..
but its useless whattt
crying is only to release my anger..
i kept on saying that i have no stress..no stress..no stress..
is that reli the truth?
do i have stress?or do i not?
i only know that..
there's no point for me to zheng qu n study hard..
i reli think that i study damn hard for this exam ady..
but why?
they say they dint study that hard
they say they just scan thru
they say they just read thru
they say they start studying late..
yet their results are far better than me?
UGH -.- FED UP
are they lying or just that im too naive?
maybe their read thru is my memorising
maybe their scanning is my 3 or 4 times reading
maybe their start studying late is weeks earlier than me?
i just feel UNEASY n TIRED of IT
haiss..
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